THIS BLOG POST MAY NOT BE ACCEPTABLE FOR CHILDREN TO READ.
I’ve been diagnosed with severe depression by a doctor. I have told several people that I struggle with depression and I’ve gotten mixed responses. Some have told me they feel for me or have depression as well, while others have told me they don’t believe depression is a real issue and that I “just need to be happy.”
One thing I know that I, and other people with depression HATE is being told to just be happy. The same way some people can’t approach a person they think is attractive, the way some people aren’t good with money, or the way some people just seem to have tons of confidence it’s just the way they are. Depression is a legitimate condition that I suffer from.
I have nights where I feel extremely confident, like I can change the world. A few days later I’ll feel like I’m the worst person in the world, like nothing I do is good enough and I don’t even know why I’m here. I have suffered from the worst thoughts someone with depression can have. No it isn’t like a cold that you deal with for a day or two and it’s gone until next year. I have weeks where I don’t deal with it or, like the last two weeks, I deal with it every day or every other day. Sometimes I just feel defeated and sometimes I feel like my life is a joke and I shouldn’t be here.
I lost a friend who was seeking help from depression and it wasn’t enough, and I feel like sometimes it’s better to let someone know. I know it’s hard to do, but it’s helped me grow and deal with it. I am very quiet about my depression because I don’t want sympathy or people judging me based on it. I have good and bad days like anyone, it’s just that my bad days are extremely bad days.
So before you judge me just remember that I judge myself harder than you or anyone else ever could. This is where I find the strength to push myself to try and be a great children’s book author. Try to put my passion and pain from everything I’ve been through into my books to help children who may be going through tough situations themselves. Giving back, donating, helping children, it all helps me deal with my depression.
So I’ve been told more and more that I’m a goofy, weird guy and it doesn’t come across when I’m talking about books and sometimes in my books. Not sure where that came from but I thought I’d blog goofy facts about myself here and there to try and let my goofy-ness show (yes I add “ness” to the end of any word I want).
Today’s Goofy Fact is that I talk to everything. I get that might not sound weird, but my co-worker at my day job makes fun of me everyday for it. I’ve talked tofrogs, dogs, squirrels, dragonflies, dragonfly larvae, leeches (explicit material), worms, and waterstriders (little bugs that float on top of ponds). I have also gone out of my way to save dragonfly larvae and other things. I got told to stop when i put an injured dragonfly on a rock and poured water next to him in case he got thirsty.
I’ve been told by everyone that I am a 5-year-old stuck in a 30-year-old body. I mean I would drop thousands of dollars on Legos if I could. Who wouldn’t?
There you go, Goofy Fact #1! Thanks for reading all of you goofy people!
I’ve talked a little about it before. Donation Books will be books I plan to create and then donate all of the rights and profits to help a specific charity or group. Since I’m self-published, I have no one to tell me it’s a bad idea #stickingoutmytongue.
First one coming out is a book for the Colorado Veterans Project. They are a charity that helps veterans facing difficulties. I spoke with and interviewed a number of veterans who wanted a children’s book showing the difficulties families face while the parent(s) are deployed. This book is currently being illustrated and we are hoping for it to be finished around the end of 2017 or the beginning of 2018. We have faced some personal issues which have postponed the release of this book, but we’re working hard on it.
Next up, is a Donation Book that I am writing for one of my late idols. I will be writing and illustrating it because it is a more personal book for me. It will be donated to a music foundation in their name, and I will release all of the info once I get closer to a release. The book is based on a specific song they wrote with influences from other songs they wrote. It will have a sad ending that is still child friendly, but adults will understand the meaning. To be honest, I cried reading the end to my girlfriend because it has quotes from his songs and I’m kind of a baby with things like that. No making fun of me #imnotababy.
I will have more info coming soon, along with a new book coming in the next month! Thanks for reading and please share.
C. Fulsty Books will be running an event tent at Littleton, Colorado‘s 89th annual Western Welcome Week!
I will be sharing a tent with Joseph Caldara, the author of Bob and the Cyber-Llama. My illustrator, Shanilee Fields may even stop by! If you want some autographs, books, just have a chat, be sure to stop on by and say hi to everyone! Remember, all profits will be going to CURE Childhood Cancer and Canines for Disabled Kids as we will be in the middle of our first ever Donation Month.
If you want to stop by, we will be in Downtown Littleton, Colorado on Main Street between Curtice Street and S. Rapp on August 19th from 8am to 5 pm. We all hope to see you there!
C. Fulsty Books has teamed up with CURE Childhood Cancer & Canines for Disabled Kids. For the month of August 2017, C. Fulsty Books will be donating 100% of profits on our four children’s picture books. Blake and the Turtles, The Little Cloud, How High Can You Jump and the Not So Bad Christmas Stocking are the books that when purchased, every penny that is profit will go to charity. The profits will be split evenly with 50% going to CURE Childhood Cancer and 50% going to Canines for Disabled Kids.
If you want to help, go buy a C. Fulsty book and with every purchase you will be donating to both of these great charities.
Thank you again to CURE Childhood Cancer and Canines for Disabled Kids for partnering up with us for this event!
On May 6th from 5-8pm (MST) I will be joining Michelle Dennise for her “Cover Reveal Party.” There will be other indie authors all going promotions, giveaways and other fun activities. For example, if the Facebook page “Michelle Dennise – Cover Reveal Party” gets 200 people attending, I will dance during my segment. I will also allow everyone attending to choose the dance I do. The Macarena, the Hokey Pokey, Thriller, the Groot Dance, you choose.
So don’t miss out on any of the fun! Enjoy all the authors that will be there:
I love working with kids! They don’t judge, they just want to have fun and learn. Some have had tough lives and don’t even understand they have. Some have fought against the worst, and still have a smile. Kids are incredible and I believe they get pushed aside and forgotten because, “they have the rest of their lives for that.” Adults don’t think about a child’s childhood only lasts for a short while, and how many of us wish our childhood lasted longer? Some kids didn’t even get one.
Next time you see a child, remember that they can grow into inspiration for the world, or another weight to bring it down.
I hope my work with kids and my books will inspire every child who has a rough childhood, a tough fight, or a regular childhood. I want to help them grow into inspiration.
C. Fulsty books will change the world. Whether it’s through books, donations, visits, or through a single child.
Every book I’ve written and will write, will have a deep meaning and a lesson to teach each child to help shape the world. Kids need guidance on how to be good people and how to have strength in themselves in order to change the world for a better future. Dr. Seuss inspired me, and I want to inspire another to continue the change.
This is just a quick though I had while editing, “The Man with the Tall Shoes.” However, that book will have a great lesson along these lines, just like every other book I write.